Direction...What direction?

I never considered having a direction for this blog. It was something i started because i like to write and i thought i would keep it up, with random ramblings and cutesy things, reviews or some shit

But i think having a direction is a good idea. I may not know what i want to do with my life but i know the direction i am going. Forward. That's as good as a direction as any.

I am a 24 year old girl, living in a pretty rural village in Ireland with my 4 year old son and my boyfriend of almost 6 years.
That's not WHO i am, it is just a fact.

Who I am is what i want to figure out.
Sometimes i feel like i don't know where i am going and half the time it doesn't bother me.. But for the other hours in the day i am terrified. Terrified of the unknown.

When i was younger, i used to love the unknown, not knowing what was coming around the corner, the excitement of something new.
 I guess i could say i had a plan when i was younger, before the world showed me pieces of myself i never knew existed. I was a dreamer and i don't regret a moment of those dreaming days. Because that's what you do when your 16, about to finish secondary school and you are so ready to make your mark. You dream. You dream of amazing college experiences, of making amazing friends and travelling to exotic lands. You dream of getting your dream job and making butt loads of cash, of finding true love and having a beautiful life.

Some will say that those are pipe dreams, wasted time dreaming of a life that will never happen. But its not wasted time, I was 16 and finished school. All i had was time. And that exhilarating feeling of the unknown. I was ready!

And then, life happened. Its not how i had expected it to go when i was 16, but its been an amazing ride so far.
There have been times when the world felt so cold and so dark, i wanted so badly to be that dreaming 16 year old again.
But there are countless times that i am so happy i got to grow up and see the world through a life that i created, with all my mistakes, wrong turns, tearful nights and joyous days in the sun.

So here i am. A 24 year old girl...FACT!

Lets discover WHO i am. A concept, an idea, an understanding.

Am i a mother, a girlfriend, a daughter, a sister, an artist, a musician, a butcher, a baker, a theater critic, a blog writer, a YouTuber, a TV slob, a move director, an actress, a taste tester, a teacher, tennis ball?

Am i some of the above? Yes
Am i all of the above? No
Could i be? Perhaps
Do i want to be? Lets find out


Nova xx