Just a little bit of nova history...
I know its a fairly new thing to the people of the Internet but for me, i have been experiencing "the tingles" for 6 or 7 years.
It all started when i was about 15 and the terrors of adolescence started baring their teeth. I developed a terrible case of insomnia, something that followed me for years. Of course, back then while i was still at school it only presented itself at the weekends but when i finished school at 16 and took a year off before going to college, the insomnia bedded down for a long stay (hehe).
During these 3 years before i went to college, i discovered infomercials and the shopping network on TV. Soon, i spent all night watching them and most parts of the day watching the repeats. They started to have a strange effect on me. After a while, they began to calm me, making it much easier for me to close my eyes and drift off.
I began getting the tingles, triggered by the gentleness of the programming.
That strange fuzzy sensation in your head that almost feels as if your brain is turning to mush but nice tasty mush with chocolate sprinkles and coconut. It was sheer pleasure. Such a feeling of relaxation and tranquility.
But it didn't last long.
I didn't realise it at the time but my insomnia was being caused by depression and a feeling of isolation. Soon the triggering power of the calming voices of the shopping TV presenters began to have no effect on me. I lost my tingles but still had the insomnia. I stayed away from the shopping network because i almost felt like it was becoming an obsession. In some stupid way, i felt that if i kept staying up and not sleeping, if i kept watching that my tingles would come back and i would be able fall into a blissful mushy headed sleep.
I would not have a tingle for nearly a year. My insomnia reached its peak when i went to college. I was going days without sleeping yet somehow was still able to focus relatively well. That was worse. I felt like i could stay awake forever and never see any ill effects.
It wasn't until i was at college for about 5 months that i got access to the Internet in my apartment. Having never had much access to it before i was enjoying watching movies and listening to music non stop, all hours of the day that i wasn't at class. It was like the shopping channels all over. But instead of soothing and helping my insomnia, it fed it. like a ravenous bird.
And then as if my magic when i was 19, my second year of college, i was recommended a video by YouTube. It was a video of Lita, doing her massage thing. For ASMR fans, you will know who i am talking about. After that, i watched every massage video she had, loving the soothing music and voices and just like the shopping network, it had the same calming effect on me. Then i branched out. I realised i loved watching soothing craft videos and that i loved the sounds of beads and buttons clacking on a wooden table. I loved watching Bob Ross paint and people pretending to be make up artists or opticians. I thought id gone insane.
It wasn't until i discovered Maria (GentleWhispering), that i realised that all these years there was a name for my tingles. And that there were so many others out there chasing that gorgeous feeling. Not through drugs or alcohol, but by gentleness and whispering and soothing voices.
ASMR was my escape from the insomnia. And now, anytime i cannot sleep or am stressed or have a headache or am angry or sad, i know i can watch a video of someone just whispering in my ear and that fuzzy mushy feeling in my brain tells me everything is going to be all right. It may sound weird or strange but for me the tingles play such an important part of my life.
So, thats my ASMR story.
And down here, is a list of my favourite ASMR wonderfulness providers...haha!
Enjoy : )
Mucho Luv
Nova Kaine
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